Life.. the toughest reason to live!!

Is life really complicated or do we make it complicated?

Have you ever thought when was the last time you were confident about what you were doing?

The correct decision!

The right choice!

Why is it always that we have to choose ? Choose something over the other ?

Why is it always that we lose some to gain some?

Why can't we have all the happiness? Why is it always that when we want the life to go our way, it never goes that way?

Why do we start expecting so much from life when we know we will not get what we want?

Why is it that when we stop living or we are fed up of life we bump our selves into the very the very thing that becomes the reason to live again?

Why is it always the hard way?

Why can't we close our eyes and just go on and choose a path and assume that it would be right no matter what??

I guess that's life ... to make someone happy you have to make someone sad..

Another heart break!! oh i am so used to it now!! i feel being negative helps because you don't expect that thing anymore.

Where was i wrong? Was loving him a wrong step ? Or letting him take advantage of my love ? I could have done anything for him. Just a call away.. waiting for his call.

Never knew it would end up like this.Never thought he wouldn't even have a bit of respect.

Why is life so complicated? Why is it when someone loves you, you don't realize his importance? Now all i am left with is to console my self by saying i deserved someone better.

Is it really true?

Who decides this? Who decides who is better for whom?

Like any other person I feel like killing myself but does he deserve it? Is he worth my life? Should i end my life and give pain to my loved ones for someone for whom i don't even exist? This doesn't mean my love for him is fake or I am a afraid.

Just that losing my life won't make a difference to him(wish it did)

I feel I have lost him.

But did i ever have him?

I still love him!

But can I ever stop it?

I wish to get him!

But will this come true?

I wish the best for him, can never see him in pain

Still wish he saw mine !

All wishes never come true however i still pray..

I still hope someday he will realise my worth.

love actually

Have you ever been in love? This is one of the most frequent questions one ask me and my answer to it is always different. Even after so many relationships, so many boy friends and so many break ups i still haven't been able to figure out what love means. Whether its waiting for that person for your whole life or letting go of him when he wants to.I can't say i have been in love but it was a really sweet feeling .The day we talked for the first time i never thought i would like him. He was sweet but i wasn't the one who could fall for someone so easily.However it happened, i never wanted to accept, that i was falling for a guy whom i knew from just a day.It was insane, it was stupid but it was crazy and it was sweet. I loved his smile, the way his lips curved, the glow in his eyes, the innocent face. Gosh!! it made me fall in love with him there and then, head over heels. I still don't know. I am as confused as you are. I want him to feel the same. I want him in every bit of my life.But till when ? Will this feeling also finish like others have? Will i never get him too? Will I be unlucky as ever?There are so many unanswered questions in me which I want him to answer. I know he wouldn't , still i wish he did. Never did, never have, never will but am sure someday u will!!

heaps of random thoughts!!

is it just me or evryone at the age of 17 are as confused as i am?? Sometimes i just feel it was a mistake and sometimes it feels it was the most beautiful thing that has happened to me ever.. well i am talking about me coming in totally new country at the age of 17 to fulfill my parents dream , my dream. I still remember the first day of my university, though i was trying to be very brave infront of my dad so that he didnt feel worried but from inside i was scared to death . I was lost. It was my first step in a new world. A world that was outside the boundary of my friends and family, outside my school and home. I was scared to ask for directions, to b guided because i did't want to be considered a nerd.However all went fine and here I am 2 months old in Australia still trying to figure out what my life wants from me!!